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Sun, Dec 28
lfm
sky's cleared up for the night
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Fri, Dec 26
lfm
🕊
letter? for future me, say, late march 2026?
i don't really have much to aim for currently to be honest, just some expectations of a continued stable life. always end up in this energy saver mode in the depths of the darkest time of the year.
i'm still off-kilter right now over having fallen out with someone a couple of weeks back. y'know. i'm not expecting any amends or anything though. part of me was still really fond of them in some way up until the bid for distance, even though the fondness wasn't really making any sense. but i miss the way certain moments with them felt (from before i started catching feelings), something about them felt distinctly good, even outside of the context of having had Feelings for them for some while. i dunno.
but just, be careful if you end up falling in love with a friend again (i doubt you'll be at such a point, from how rarely i've had these cases, but gotta be safe)
i've not had much energy to pursue hobby type things properly right now either, my focus been in retractive activities, going through things trying to figure out what to keep. but i just want to aim back toward experiencing things more fully again, in the now. but sometimes it's just this deep fog...
the tranceparty in midmarch - how was it? hopefully it was a good time overall.
i'll try sleep now. malibu live on kexp at home still got me.
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Thu, Dec 25
lfm
hope you get some warm space and some warm closeness as required
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Tue, Dec 23
lfm
checkpoint: struggling with letting go
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Tue, Dec 23
lfm
Get in your body. Frequently step away from what you’re doing. Eat lunch, go for a walk, take a shower, listen to music. This will help you remember that your brain lives in a body that needs some attention. (src)
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Tue, Dec 23
lfm
not quite as clear as it was forecasting, but still seen a bit of sun
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Mon, Dec 22
lfm
you cant ask people to be what they arent like
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Sun, Dec 21
lfm
the whirr of my friend's oldhorse laptop
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Sat, Dec 20
lfm
military-grade pet hair
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Fri, Dec 19
lfm
ephemeral posting a lot right now
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Fri, Dec 19
lfm
forecasting clear sky for some of tuesday?
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Thu, Dec 18
lfm
not really much to [verb]
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Thu, Dec 18
lfm
most logistically annoying thing about this: not having any go-to sadcry music these days
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Wed, Dec 17
lfm
sc sifted backlog: 135 things, 121h 9min
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Wed, Dec 17
lfm
or rather sometimes gotta be aware that i gotta actually learn from my own mistakes too
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Wed, Dec 17
lfm
sometimes just got to make mistakes to learn
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Tue, Dec 16
lfm
thinking about a friend of mine who ive met a few times whose place i dropped by the other month, and them talking about not wanting to leave traces online as much as they have in the past. feels resonant, that. hoping they doing good, would be nice to hang more someday, maybe ifwhen some other event in their city down the line
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Mon, Dec 15
lfm
the sands of time and change will get to all
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Sun, Dec 14
lfm
fell asleep for a bit. snowy now for a bit.
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Sat, Dec 13
lfm
outdoor drying rack decked up in fairy lights
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Sat, Dec 13
lfm
sleepy duck at the stream atop a small fallen branch
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Sat, Dec 13
lfm
grateful in general for this web of connections, situational as a lot of it might be, but all the same
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Thu, Dec 11
lfm
"y'know, something that i actually don't understand or know about, what the hell does dl trade mean? um, recently, a dl emt in the ie confessed feelings to me. is that dl trade?! like, there is no nudes involved, but... y'know, feelings were traded! like, (??) back to me on that, thanks(?)!"
-in the current soundcloud mix im listening hahaha unfortunately i too do not know wtf theyre talking about, but i love the "feelings were traded" wording lmao
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Wed, Dec 10
lfm
after aistobascistod, from convo with a friend:
oli xl : xylitol
jamie xx : xymietjax
i mean : anytime
e : yet
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Wed, Dec 10
lfm
cherished situationals
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Tue, Dec 09
lfm
dont put your own thoughts into other people's heads
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Sun, Dec 07
lfm
person next to me on the bus having their coat on their lap spilling over a little bit onto my lap - something poetic about this
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Sun, Dec 07
lfm
someone eating/eaten an orange on this bus. lovely smell.
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Sat, Dec 06 (CET)
lfm
railside sheep too
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Sat, Dec 06 (CET)
lfm
railside horse stable type thing :-)
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Sat, Dec 06 (GMT)
lfm
sunny...
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Fri, Dec 05 (GMT)
lfm
note 2 self: citymapper
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Fri, Dec 05
lfm
Once Again In Tallinn Airport.
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Fri, Dec 05
lfm
yet to pack: power bank (charging for the night), water bottle (will receive from bus cos loyalty bonus), light food (will handle in morning), wired earbuds (might still use tn)
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Thu, Dec 04
lfm
still been trying to make sense of all this, but gotta just let it be and let myself be in peace
no maybes!
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Thu, Dec 04
lfm
Designated Yapping Area
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Wed, Dec 03
lfm
644 mins on the wrapped. this year legit spent more time at music events than streamin from spotify. to hell w that
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Wed, Dec 03
lfm
blow my mind dj blow my mind!!!!!
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Wed, Dec 03
lfm
i dreamt a continuation of a (neutral) workplace scenario, i just remembered. irl a customer asked for a specific kind of broom which we dont have in stock atm, in the dream i found the brooms in another location of the shop. the hell
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Tue, Dec 02
lfm
my experience with web became better and healthier after i realized i'd love to make my website as an archive, a shelf, a library. something that will be here for me as long as possible.
not a brand, not a portfolio, not a product. just a collection of memories, something to look back on one day, and see how i've changed. together with it.
i built a place for me first. and while feedback is pleasant and inspiring, it is optional. guests are lovely and welcome, yet i'm the host.
i want to look at it, and think: "yep, that's so me."
and if the luck is on my side, then this website will last, and outlast me.
[-northome]
yessssssssss exactly..
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Sat, Nov 29 (GMT)
lfm
hearing wholeass BIRDS (potentially nightingales) sing at FOUR THIRTY IN THE MORNING
in Nearly December. (unheard of for my estonian ass)
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Sat, Nov 29 (GMT)
lfm
lmfao ONE single e-gate open i'm the first one thru oli im making my damn WAY
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Fri, Nov 28
lfm
light shining thru the cracks
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Thu, Nov 27
lfm
(bumping evian christ b2b torus draaimolen 2023 recording) LIBERTAAAAA
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Thu, Nov 27
lfm
I'll Get You Your Origami Swan, Evian
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Sun, Nov 23
lfm
it's almost 1am, can't trust my head this late
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Sat, Nov 22
lfm
the Same Old's particularly grating to me this morning
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Sat, Nov 22
lfm
morningtime blue-hour comfort