next opponent: gnomes in my brain
(theyre very tired they need some gentle care)
an online friend (n fellow mf in staffteam in rather large server) to me the other day fwiw :,) :
Just a quick shout-out to you for always being comfortable to be around, that doesn't go without saying. Appreciate u
tmrw - keep it simple
breakfast, morning errand 10:30am. be honest.
weather forecasts nice i might just soak in the sun...
bestie wants to drop by this or next week, they told me today - some spiritslifting. floorstuff into box or in their according places. sweep floor...
cook for lunchhh... fish fingers most likely option. chop the dill, mix it in some saucestuff.
lettuce battle royale doesnt feel worth it i might just chuck that whole thing n wash the pot for later use. maybe drop by parentgarden for some nicer lettuce from em... and mint leaves.
keep it simple.
today...
fill out form, take in. done...better later than never i guess. whatever
cook smth tmrw
clean up a bit... this can wait a bit. did manage to clean up the lobby carpet thing. whatever
options none i was so slow. did go on a walk..
did delete some bookmarks..how would it be to let go of more. i dont have to be an archivist it feels like a burden
dinner (tortilla chips ft carrot) done
kittyvisit done; just fingernails cut... hair unwashed but whatever it's still presentable after some brushing
bedtime... cereal breakfast tmrw. then this thing tmrw morn that was supposed to be tues afternoon. even w my stupid brainsludge form
today
breakfast (cereal) slept thru
head to some shops 2ndhand or otherwise? dunno if i can bother but there's still some time print out that form uve been meaning to done, fill out, take in
lunch (leftover pasta); put sauce into some to-go box done; will prolly cook smth laterrr..
floor stuff into box and pack granny square blanket into one bag... write down work sched for next week onward. maybe physically n stick onto fridge...
my mind been stuck in some sludge. one [undetermined] away from [undetermined] or something. got to be careful, got to take care, got to be patient. microdosing breakdowns by deleting stuff (decimated my animal crossing pocket camp save data yesterday, hadn't opened it for a couple of months, feels meaningless)
ideadump tucked away
tomorrow...
breakfast (cereal)
head to some shops 2ndhand or otherwise? look for a new cap in case i cba diy. print out that form uve been meaning to, fill out, take in.
lunch (leftover pasta); put sauce into some to-go box; generate some leftovers - pelmeni or fish fingers
clean up a bit... put some stuff from floor into miscs box. put away granny square blanket mats for now
options: trace fabric for diy cap / mesh crochet experiment / sort thru yarn
bookmarks can wait
file sorting can wait
games can wait
dinner (tortilla chips ft carrot, unless)
kittyvisit; cut nails, wash hair
try wind down earlier... wake earlier, cereal brekky
kittycircuit findings
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tabbyish of some kind (forget if the exotic coat was any sorta tabbyish one - but might be distinct)
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pastel-y calico? looked soft
but both were hangin out in their respective yards
in the past week or so while i was away, a little spider spawned in the corner of one of my windows.
though w/ the bumping the trip earlier ill ideally have more time in warsaw! more time for more food acquisition... (and small things of soplica lmao)
also snackies for transit, unless i already crack into the smaller pack of pan di stelle i intended as a gift for a friend living not far off but they're feeling too unwell today to meet so :,) ill send healing vibes as i crack into it unless i get other snackies
(tho i do have some pistachios aswell)
ill gather the first-day-of-period-debuffed strength to haul myself to toilet, then to nearest grocery store for something to cook, then cook sth, then maybe just sort of. go to bed and Rest
then 7:45am train out (bumped it earlier to allow for bus replacement service bullshit chaos margin potential for the middle bit of trip)
the beds in this hostel room are so nice and wide
also someone has maybe a wifi hotspot named "hella good" lol
toilet flushing noise as i delete 74 emails no longer necessary
side quest: write to fest email about a couple of lost things, sometime soon (maybe once on reliable internet)
once i get home (next wednesday evening) i'll probably proceed thus...
wed eve: unpack, laundry, kittyvisit, groceries, big fuckoff sleep
thurs: just do fuck-all and play idk mario kart or animal crossing or somesuch all day (ft food). and go thru all my trip pics+vids n sort em out
bus brakes sharply & suddenly, the overhead luggage slides forward a good distance
kittycircuit spanning one brisk block of standalone houses then - late summer evening seems to be the optimal time for maximal kitty
and i declare the polybean tuxes classic cos iirc i first saw one of them in 2017!
and then the 2 classic tux kitties probably both polydactyl who aren't too long ways off kittycircuit
theyre all loosely associated w some house or other so at least some of them probably already neutered/spayed
say what one may about outdoor roaming cats being an ecological threat, still brings me joy to see these mfs
kittycircuit walks' sightings
- orange tux - ok enough with pets
- whitenose calico - SUPER friendly doesnt even mind belly rubs
- brownnose calico - friendly
- blacknose calico - friendly
- Really Soft - friendly
- exotic coat - timid
- black tux - timid
- colorpoint - inconclusive findings, was chilling too out of range within a yard
[oli xl voice] its saturday, today,
(from intro of one of the rinse fm mixes)
*surprisingly many words are unsafe from oli-association in my brain. and/or surprisingly few
the smilepage is the part of my site i visit the most. and it's especially cute with the little heartprint-upon-click/tap script and custom video controls, combined. see the one bit on the progressbar (round when the vox come in in the song) being proliferated w the lil hearts? :,]
i might lift the video embed out from the first-year round on the page sometime... not a high priority right now, but something to think about still.
like - literally, so much of what i find myself in is either made up or conditioned
play silly games (dress recognizably), win silly prizes (actually be recognized)
thinking about the end of an exchange i saw once (related to josm)
I really don’t care , sorry
That's okay. Not every hill is one to die on.
not every hill is one to die on.
that there are grand majestic natural features out in the world that seem to be widely recognised as beautiful does not make gentle snowfall on a quiet cold winter night any less so
as per some1 else on the thoughtspage 'ring:
im really glad i found this site and did my best to keep posting semi often cuz at first it was about me being sick of my poor memory but unable to journal like a normal person. thank you wesley youre really cool and i wish i could afford to pay. thoughts dot page has been so helpful to me for like the last 3(??) years. anyway
real as fuck + shoutout wesley for real for maintaining this lil thing + i do pay cos im currently able to :p
backing off & letting the magic work itself for some areas -- getting hands-on & bringing the effort necessary for other areas
make sure you bring some water and an object of comfort
-friend's advice for packing
i think at the core of all this i just want to fully be a benevolent weirdo in peace in my day-to-day at least someplace without being questioned and judged for it.
remember not to think hard about people who didn't think at all
incorporating this in2 my world view Right Now in conscious form
a friend went like "im a staunch proponent of literally ignoring every celebrity" in some chat a while back and ive increasingly become aligned to that shit too
sometimes i don't know what to do with all this feeling, in this particular case
it lives its own life, and i've gone off about it a lot, but still, still
deeply grateful
feels like home
my body a dream for some people (to be like / to touch against) -- and at the same time, it simply is