forever just another day

hi i also exist here / currently displaying the latest 50 thoughts from newest, and a few prior thoughts

spring '25 status: slowly feeling more in place

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* Sun, Jul 06 '25 ~ 12:52 (Europe/Rome) lfm

once i get home (next wednesday evening) i'll probably proceed thus...

wed eve: unpack, laundry, kittyvisit, groceries, big fuckoff sleep

thurs: just do fuck-all and play idk mario kart or animal crossing or somesuch all day (ft food). and go thru all my trip pics+vids n sort em out

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 18:33 (Europe/Rome) lfm

omw to town from airport. seen a flock of parrots flying :-o

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 10:38 (Europe/Riga) lfm

bus brakes sharply & suddenly, the overhead luggage slides forward a good distance

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 08:12 lfm

quest: take out some cash before going out of country

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 07:14 lfm

kittycircuit spanning one brisk block of standalone houses then - late summer evening seems to be the optimal time for maximal kitty

and i declare the polybean tuxes classic cos iirc i first saw one of them in 2017!

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 07:10 lfm

and then the 2 classic tux kitties probably both polydactyl who aren't too long ways off kittycircuit

theyre all loosely associated w some house or other so at least some of them probably already neutered/spayed

say what one may about outdoor roaming cats being an ecological threat, still brings me joy to see these mfs

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 07:07 lfm

kittycircuit walks' sightings

* Thu, Jul 03 '25 ~ 07:01 lfm

paying attention to radio segment idents

* Wed, Jul 02 '25 ~ 23:56 lfm

miniorchid status: 28 spent, 3 up

* Wed, Jul 02 '25 ~ 13:54 lfm

"mõni koer võib lausa kolhoosi esitraktoriks pretendeerida" lmaooo

* Mon, Jun 30 '25 ~ 22:32 lfm

blushing sunset

* Mon, Jun 30 '25 ~ 17:43 lfm

what hills am i even willing to die on

* Sun, Jun 29 '25 ~ 21:27 lfm

miniorchid status: 27 spent, 1 + 3 up

* Sat, Jun 28 '25 ~ 21:33 lfm

some shit literally won't matter in a year

* Sat, Jun 28 '25 ~ 15:16 lfm

Don’t shame yourself for things you’d find endearing in others.

-here's your permission slip

* Sat, Jun 28 '25 ~ 13:36 lfm

[oli xl voice] its saturday, today,

(from intro of one of the rinse fm mixes)

*surprisingly many words are unsafe from oli-association in my brain. and/or surprisingly few

* Sat, Jun 28 '25 ~ 12:26 lfm

in my dreams i was swimming

* Sat, Jun 28 '25 ~ 03:57 lfm

been up all nite...so as logical conclusion i go and have a shower

* Fri, Jun 27 '25 ~ 00:22 lfm

meaning being smeared away from me by forces beyond me

* Thu, Jun 26 '25 ~ 23:34 lfm

they lost the late evening bus i occasionally took back home - disappointing but not surprising

* Thu, Jun 26 '25 ~ 21:40 lfm

slepy and mildly nauseous even. guess i'll go to bed about it

* Thu, Jun 26 '25 ~ 21:06 lfm

i wanted to go on a ride but now im SLEEPY

* Wed, Jun 25 '25 ~ 22:54 lfm

miniorchid status: 26 spent, 2 + 3 up

* Wed, Jun 25 '25 ~ 22:45 lfm

meaning being blown away in the wind

* Wed, Jun 25 '25 ~ 09:51 lfm

forever just another day

* Tue, Jun 24 '25 ~ 23:02 lfm

windy

* Tue, Jun 24 '25 ~ 22:23 lfm

what do i want to keep around for the future?

* Tue, Jun 24 '25 ~ 22:22 lfm

[---] Instead, I’d like to propose that we carve out a new space for precious documents we would like to preserve even if the cloud wasn’t around. Do the curatorial work to keep our data fresh. Export your Are.na channels. Take screen recordings of websites that you like, to supplement the work of the Wayback Machine. Prune your harddrives from time to time; convert files to long-lasting formats like JPEG, PDF, or JSON. Capture and archive the interfaces, thoughts, and documents created in software systems that are always changing.

There’s an aphorism that once you put something online it’s there forever, but this is proving to be less and less the case. And as we see with magnetic tape storage, the cloud is very much a material thing—backed up by hardware and maintained in sprawling facilities, with a real and growing environmental cost. These conditions call for us to be more discerning about the caliber of memory we record. Instead of acting like a cloud storage provider and putting everything in “cold” storage, let’s keep our most treasured memories warm.

(memory banks by megumi tanaka for are.na)

* Tue, Jun 24 '25 ~ 19:31 lfm

boredom not the end of the world - just a signal. just a signal

* Sun, Jun 22 '25 ~ 21:04 lfm

lovely moment

* Sun, Jun 22 '25 ~ 17:10 lfm

in my break, i think i want to consolidate myself a little. get rid of some material things, clear out a cupboard. return to my website. thats what im dreaming of right now. (x)

real

* Sun, Jun 22 '25 ~ 13:14 lfm

pulling up seretide boiler room vid once again

coming through right about now, tranceparty's very own,
SERETIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDE

yea

* Sat, Jun 21 '25 ~ 22:47 lfm

i would go enjoy the solstice outside but still got this cold to fend off...

* Sat, Jun 21 '25 ~ 08:17 lfm

rendered near-mute

* Fri, Jun 20 '25 ~ 22:01 lfm

having a printer sooo fucking nice lowkey... no need to rely on others to Print Stuff

* Fri, Jun 20 '25 ~ 22:00 lfm

more stable the past couple of days.

strat after work tmrw (fortunately just 6hr shift and not solo) - probably maybe also retreat to sofa under blanket, with tea or somesuch. try fix my health best i can before 23rd cos rlly wanna go hang out w bestie at their parents'. does seem to be clearing up slowly.

uhhhhh what else. maybe chuck one of the two kinds of grill sausage either in the oven or in the freezer for later perusal, leave the other for midsummer haul-along. shashlik to my parents sunday stealth.

prepare for trip by buying the last of the bus tix i need to buy. make a list of what to do before the actual trip (water plants, unplug stuff, toss the drying-up little bouquet, clean, blinds down maybe. pack obvs!!!), print out the camping reg form and id copy for one of the fests i'll be catchinggg (finally the link for it works too)

* Fri, Jun 20 '25 ~ 10:53 lfm

think i might be a bit too timid on the doc visit front but i probably still really should even just for a more certain fix than throwing painkillers and throatsoothers at this

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 15:59 lfm

doc visit & rest tmrw!!!!!

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 12:57 lfm

maybe prep rest of the strawberries in some typa nice way too

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 12:54 lfm

strat tn after work: mug of hot cocoa and curl up to read or just listen to mynoise ambience

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 10:07 lfm

purgatory

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 00:10 lfm

still so fragile about it

* Thu, Jun 19 '25 ~ 00:10 lfm

i rraly need a fucking hug

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 21:04 lfm

rather be a sensitive baby than an insensitive asshole

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 20:56 lfm

package today. now i could make magnets...

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 17:38 lfm

or package tmrw...

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 17:34 lfm

strat: dinner -> kitty -> package -> pack lunch

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 12:37 lfm

im fragile and jaded

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 08:51 lfm

i want to go the fuck offline and go home

* Wed, Jun 18 '25 ~ 08:50 lfm

i want to fucking go home

* Tue, Apr 15 '25 ~ 22:31 📍 lfm

horizontal phone screenshot from my webpage dedicated to cartoon smile by oli xl, with a bunch of tiny translucent heartprints atop the song's embedded video, of oli walking round a field

the smilepage is the part of my site i visit the most. and it's especially cute with the little heartprint-upon-click/tap script and custom video controls, combined. see the one bit on the progressbar (round when the vox come in in the song) being proliferated w the lil hearts? :,]

i might lift the video embed out from the first-year round on the page sometime... not a high priority right now, but something to think about still.

* Thu, Apr 10 '25 ~ 20:21 📍 lfm

concept: lil sculpted painted stars as magnets

* Wed, Apr 09 '25 ~ 01:35 📍 lfm

like - literally, so much of what i find myself in is either made up or conditioned

* Thu, Apr 03 '25 ~ 22:35 📍 lfm

play silly games (dress recognizably), win silly prizes (actually be recognized)

* Wed, Apr 02 '25 ~ 19:53 📍 lfm

thinking about the end of an exchange i saw once (related to josm)

I really don’t care , sorry

That's okay. Not every hill is one to die on.

not every hill is one to die on.

* Tue, Mar 25 '25 ~ 18:14 📍 lfm

what a gift to live and experience

* Thu, Mar 13 '25 ~ 02:14 📍 lfm

curiosity as guide

* Fri, Feb 21 '25 ~ 23:55 📍 lfm

you have a body

okay i lowkey needed the reminder actually

* Mon, Feb 17 '25 ~ 01:38 📍 lfm

that there are grand majestic natural features out in the world that seem to be widely recognised as beautiful does not make gentle snowfall on a quiet cold winter night any less so

* Mon, Feb 17 '25 ~ 00:57 📍 lfm

i can move slow and still be loved

* Wed, Jan 29 '25 ~ 06:40 📍 lfm

as per some1 else on the thoughtspage 'ring:

im really glad i found this site and did my best to keep posting semi often cuz at first it was about me being sick of my poor memory but unable to journal like a normal person. thank you wesley youre really cool and i wish i could afford to pay. thoughts dot page has been so helpful to me for like the last 3(??) years. anyway

real as fuck + shoutout wesley for real for maintaining this lil thing + i do pay cos im currently able to :p

* Fri, Jan 17 '25 ~ 19:02 📍 lfm

learn to take up space in your own life

* Wed, Jan 01 '25 ~ 02:41 📍 lfm

backing off & letting the magic work itself for some areas -- getting hands-on & bringing the effort necessary for other areas

* Mon, Dec 30 '24 ~ 22:10 📍 lfm

make sure you bring some water and an object of comfort

-friend's advice for packing

* Sat, Dec 07 '24 ~ 01:26 📍 lfm

i think at the core of all this i just want to fully be a benevolent weirdo in peace in my day-to-day at least someplace without being questioned and judged for it.

* Sun, Nov 03 '24 ~ 18:15 📍 lfm

remember not to think hard about people who didn't think at all

incorporating this in2 my world view Right Now in conscious form

* Sat, Nov 02 '24 ~ 15:06 📍 (Europe/Stockholm) lfm

knuckle tat idea (purely hypothetical):

typo slop

* Tue, Oct 08 '24 ~ 10:37 📍 lfm

a friend went like "im a staunch proponent of literally ignoring every celebrity" in some chat a while back and ive increasingly become aligned to that shit too

* Sun, Sep 01 '24 ~ 22:51 📍 lfm

sometimes i don't know what to do with all this feeling, in this particular case

it lives its own life, and i've gone off about it a lot, but still, still

deeply grateful

feels like home

* Thu, May 30 '24 ~ 23:50 📍 lfm

beautiful dusk sky, hot chocolate, and distant frog chorus

* Thu, May 30 '24 ~ 12:20 📍 lfm

that i can & want to doesnt always mean i should!

* Fri, Mar 29 '24 ~ 16:42 📍 lfm

delicate interconnectedness of everything

* Mon, Mar 11 '24 ~ 23:22 📍 lfm

my body a dream for some people (to be like / to touch against) -- and at the same time, it simply is

* Fri, Jun 09 '23 ~ 18:51 📍 lfm

loud frog chorus in the reeds

* Mon, Mar 13 '23 ~ 19:54 📍 lfm

the 2 genders:

* Fri, Jul 22 '22 ~ 23:06 📍 lfm

connection is all there is to it


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