i'll probs stay awake for some while more tonight anyway, been tuned to nts radio pretty much all day today, and spotted very serendipitously that felix lee's show is on at 1am my time...
what if selecting everything with cmd+a didn't just select the contents of the current text field but selected your entire computer
and if you absent mindedly delete it your computer just crashes
that would be fucked up
fucks sake and i started shaking my head on occasion like ive seen you do. i dont like any of this
this, as in, the being bitten in the ass starkly from one more side all of a sudden and not feeling so secure on the employment front anymore. and honestly wasnt feeling 100% on that already anyway after some bits of last year
no matter how much i might textually cry about it all, its still on me to handle how i feel and find optimal ways to get thru it all. thanks
every time i encounter EC in some acronym, i earnestly let part of my mind very confidently read that as evian christ
sc sifted backlog: 78 things, 88h 28min
a few things have materialized in the non-sifted backlog as well - will see about those sometime
re: ruminating on losses in particular... i guess some of it might be some part of me trying to figure out what went wrong, or something. but again can't fully control interpersonal stuff can you
some part of me still misses you(r presence), even with the mutual distance need
from november 5: what if some part of me sometimes ruminates on smallest details cos that part of me sometimes been oblivious to smallest details which would have hinted to things eventually figuratively blowing up in my face in painful ways
fucking dumbass. i'd tell myself 'do yourself a favour and never fall in love with a friend ever again' but can't quite control most of this stuff - only my own actions... pure of heart dumb of ass!!!!!!!
-- but im happy to have had the moments in the first place, to lightly hold onto --
next intent for the site: cultivate the links a bit. want to put some things therrrrre
from the atomic 3000 xenon strobe manual:
Whether or not you value your life, disconnect the fixture from AC power and allow the capacitor to discharge for 1 minute.
It is difficult for anyone born and raised in human infrastructure to truly internalize the fact that your view of the world is backward. Even if you fully know that you live in a natural world that existed before you and will continue long after, even if you know that the wilderness is the default state of things, and that nature is not something that only happens in carefully curated enclaves between towns, something that pops up in empty spaces if you ignore them for a while, even if you spend your whole life believing yourself to be deeply in touch with the ebb and flow, the cycle, the ecosystem as it actually is, you will still have trouble picturing an untouched world. You will still struggle to understand that human constructs are carved out and overlaid, that these are the places that are the in-between, not the other way around.
-a psalm for the wild-built by becky chambers, via here
ai ai ai i cannot remmeber my soundcloud password
this from a friend (same as the cow field) in my head rentfree lately, complete with the misspelling. (faces any misfortune) ai ai ai i cannot remmeber my password
hell, i have some custom css set up w/ lb that strips everything besides the custom text from the block/delay page. branding begone
unlike a fictional work, a piece of software doesn't really contain much in the way of ideological content; if it did, it would cease to be an effective site blocker so I'd uninstall it. art is hard to separate from the artist because it exists as an act of communication; a tool that solely exists to perform a task doesn't say anything except about the task.
shame bout the leechblock dev being like that, but also - software can have its owners/devs be changed probably far more easily than with art and its artist...
ok youre right it doesnt matter actually
a drop of milk in a cow field
-a friend lmaooooooo
sneek you get into the waveforms of your fav songs, your threshold for this kinda stuff is obviously different
-a friend, a while back (context: this album listenable at both 33rpm and 45rpm)
sat my ass down on the couch to yap on discord once i got back home though and lost the momentum, but it's fine, day off tomorrow. might still try wake early, if even just to wakefully take in the extended bedtime privileges. though i slept rather patchily last night, randomly woke up a couple of times, but i saw the moon from my window around like 5am before the sky clouded up :-)
cautiously noting a feeling of being a little more in balance
maybe its also the fact i left my phone home going to work but took my mp3 player, and sang along loudly to some james k during lunchbreak and mopping the floor after closing, and locked in on actually getting some stuff done there today after the yester day of fuck-all
and managed to ride the inertia enough to get around to visiting my cat, and acquiring tortilla chips on discount from the store closest to there, all while still listening to music from the mp3 player instead of my phone.