so funny to think to myself how ive seen Estonias Currently Hottest Artist live, twice, 8-9 years ago :p (tommy cash cos of the eurovision 3rd place. not that i fully care but song's not bad)
To survive an explosion outside, you need at least two walls for protection.
Because of this, my bed and room often remain empty,
And I spend my nights
on the floor
in the corridor.The two-wall rule is the most important one.
the only two-walled space in my current apartment is my bathroom, there's some stupid metaphor that could be dug up from that but i'll leave that up to [?]. at the very least, even while i could be better equipped for emergency situations of whatever sort, i got all my important documents in one binder. but i ought to print out my current rental contract and somesuch too .. .. 🤔
appreciable wording, from a mutual - "should probably take a big break from [...]. creations are dying. need to be with them"
i cant really do conventional stereotypical tourism for conventional steteotypical tourisms sake
i seem to have developed this kinda bullshit: primary music tourism, secondary food + friends tourism
appreciating the space to process and digest these past like 28 yrs of my life and all thats accumulated w it haha
the archival years before going full hog from my 30s onward or whatever the hell hahaa
funneled like 11k tumblr likes into 1270 drafts. time to sift thru those...
a thought off of reading something related to perfectionism:
imperfections tend to stick out - use this knowledge wisely
i.e give me the serenity not to make my apathy the problem of every1 else or or the me down the line
grant me the serenity not to make me not giving a fuck about much at all into everyone elses problem
the smilepage is the part of my site i visit the most. and it's especially cute with the little heartprint-upon-click/tap script and custom video controls, combined. see the one bit on the progressbar (round when the vox come in in the song) being proliferated w the lil hearts? :,]
i might lift the video embed out from the first-year round on the page sometime... not a high priority right now, but something to think about still.
like - literally, so much of what i find myself in is either made up or conditioned
play silly games (dress recognizably), win silly prizes (actually be recognized)
thinking about the end of an exchange i saw once (related to josm)
I really don’t care , sorry
That's okay. Not every hill is one to die on.
not every hill is one to die on.
that there are grand majestic natural features out in the world that seem to be widely recognised as beautiful does not make gentle snowfall on a quiet cold winter night any less so
as per some1 else on the thoughtspage 'ring:
im really glad i found this site and did my best to keep posting semi often cuz at first it was about me being sick of my poor memory but unable to journal like a normal person. thank you wesley youre really cool and i wish i could afford to pay. thoughts dot page has been so helpful to me for like the last 3(??) years. anyway
real as fuck + shoutout wesley for real for maintaining this lil thing + i do pay cos im currently able to :p
backing off & letting the magic work itself for some areas -- getting hands-on & bringing the effort necessary for other areas
make sure you bring some water and an object of comfort
-friend's advice for packing
i think at the core of all this i just want to fully be a benevolent weirdo in peace in my day-to-day at least someplace without being questioned and judged for it.
remember not to think hard about people who didn't think at all
incorporating this in2 my world view Right Now in conscious form
knuckle tat idea (purely hypothetical):
typo slop
a friend went like "im a staunch proponent of literally ignoring every celebrity" in some chat a while back and ive increasingly become aligned to that shit too
sometimes i don't know what to do with all this feeling, in this particular case
it lives its own life, and i've gone off about it a lot, but still, still
deeply grateful
feels like home
my body a dream for some people (to be like / to touch against) -- and at the same time, it simply is