this customer sometimes buying 10 of the big plastic bags at a time, and sometimes 10 for the neighbor too. what the hell do you ladies do with these that you cant reuse them damn i cant wrap my head around this (and i dont really have to but im still very confused)
stumbled upon this essay, 'my year of raves' (and this as complement) (via smallcypress via panko)
some stray poorly-organized thoughts:
im mildly attendant within some niche of european club circuitry, which as someone with a mostly-fulltime nonremote job living in a small estonian town is a bit of a feat. but i'm, as i've maybe established, hyperstubborn sometimes. lifes too short, wanna catch some faves, and sometimes catch some otherwise-online friends i otherwise wouldn't :-)
the dolling-up aspect of it all is foreign to me for the time being (despite being raised within n still vaguely aligning with girlness™️, even while being genderweird about it all), would maybe be fun to in some way, to feel Hot, but its up to me to find my own compatible ways of feeling Hot (have caught glimpses thereof). plus these 4 hour bus ride to airport + 2-3 hour flight + however much from airport to city traversals not well compatible with full such anyway, i'm one for the endurance for sure. instead of the ravey sorts of fit though, i lean in to being hilariously recognizable sometimes, especially if i don my Signature Light-Up-Winged Cap - a lovely strat for the friend-meeting. reverse wheres-waldo. "you'll know". on top of sometimes handing out lil origami cranes to people.
(still not been able to really get over the fact even evian christ recognizes me by the winged cap hah - the fuckin "oi where's my origami swan" response to my story from his helsinki set 😭)
and ive not been all too much to Specifically-Queer things at all, or specific-dresscode / themed nights, and also got no partner or children (obvs, if you know me) or anysuch, and i dont rly wish to get wasted at the nights i go to, so my circumstances n experiences n expectations a lil different as well. i primarily hurl myself at things for the lineups really... but also the ambient travel experience of it all. and the general adventure experience.
re the photos/footage taking aspect, and some people wanting to take in the crowd w such instead of the djs - for sure on the one end, would love to, but with the privacy-forward side of me quabbling against it, especially with how i sometimes actually upload footage from sets on youtube (this one goes out to all the ones in the more farflung-from-club-scenes places of the world), i delegate the crowd/friends-vibe-intake side entirely to my memories for now. and the audio of the footage sometimes haahahaha
"Feedback And Suggestions For Rave And Party Organizers Should Any Happen To Read This" ill have one more for this: never fuckin put anyone of the drain gang lot, or adjacent artists with potentially uncouth fanbases, on the same bill as ambient artists oh my GOD /lighthearted
my mind tends to filter out most amounts of yapping, BUT i did have mfs yapping right in front of me at barrier during malibu's set at tranceparty:live cos theyd spotted yung lean on the back balcony of the venue or some shit, i was too polite to tell them off myself but fortunately someone else i know from a server who was next to them did tell them off. sorry just a pet peeve really
funnily enough i even, or maybe even more so, get selfconscious about the idea of dancing around in my own home, alone. unfortunately cos only me and myself present, which on one hand mightnt help on the self-consciousness / self-judgment side of things, but also maybe i prefer having other people to bounce the energy off of, yknow?
once again, uncooked thought about transitions in dj sets vs transitions in gender, vs transitions in life!
most of all, indeed: It's The Music.
lovely to have had a "glad things worked out somehow still" type of event trip
does feel ridiculous to somehow have beat the odds unlike 3 of the djs of the lineup of the thing im at who all got their flights cancelled and were rendered unable to make it
The best way to break down the global club scene is just to shut Berlin airport
lmaoooooooo
(theyve been hit with Significant Icy Surfaces and apparently low vis as well. one of the lineup lot of the berlin thing im aiming for is unable to make it and was replaced; my flight's still scheduled 🤞🤞)