maybe just dumbasses, we all, in different ways.
doesn't negate the grief, however
if anyone i know seeing this is able to triangulate who this is about - i know hypothetical-some of youse that might care about my wellbeing more might want to cook them for all that but id rather youse leave them be tbh
i didnt even hurt anyone as such, to my knowledge? just weirdness. if being ultimately harmlessly somewhat weird is a crime...
anyway, enough going the fuck off about this (for now) (watch me go the fuck off more about this down the line idc - but for now theres other unrelated stuff too to think about)
some fucking situational awareness will you
(both at them and at myself, this)
this couldve been an entirely neutral parting of ways. instead of whatever this is with me having had to pull away from some online spaces for now so i wouldnt continue losing my mind now trying to coexist in those with someone whod verbatim changed their mind on not being a dick, toward me. what the hell
again my site-constellation i write what i want. i barely give a shit. i barely give a shit. it's either all this or lashing out at them direct and i think i have too much dignity left for the latter. just hope i won't be feeling hostile next i end up seeing you around irl. you literally had earlier-on opportunities to tell me you didn't feel the same. did you simply just not give enough of a fuck to or were you just stupid as fuck. thanks
not that there's anything to get anymore anyway. and it's not even about fairness anymore but its still fucking unfair
still wish i wouldve fullsend cried at weekender and not taken the weight home with me
if this hadnt done me in, i feel like maybe something else wouldve eventually done so instead.