i also exist here i suppose maybe sometime i will have the energy for prodding at this theme !
sometimes cute 2 behold excited ppl
im having exposure to russian-language hyperpop type stuff rn from some1 who joined the server i mainly frequent not even 24 hrs ago or something
discord spotify listen-alongs can b fun
listening thru rogue intruder soul enhancer by oli xl for the umpteenth time, over a while
some part of me has categorized a lot of oli's music as music for cloudy weather (the debut ep definitely is, listened to that before too), but right now with mostly clear sky and sun mostly out the album still feels perfect and feel like itd be in any weather
currently on mimetic
but a lot of effort to try figure out what might b worth to keep
room full of clutter
head full of noise
vaguely profound dream. hold tht thought
a trenchcoat of sneeks
helped someone remember the name of a track (based on a wrong-chords-right-rhythm main melody recon + a couple clues), makes me happy
but honestly im fine w em havin me blocked
spicy to discover uve been blocked by someone on discord. understandable but spicy
full moon, currently...
i guess i might be continuing to gawk at this bc its been a longer while since i was this fulltilt into a music artist (my peak moa pillar hogwild fan time in terms of listening was 2017), im savouring the relative newness
or maybe less than somewhat.
my lastfm has ridiculous amounts of ecco as of late
at least somewhat.
my taste so lost in the drain its in the whole sewage, the whole pipework, the whole network
actually that exchange is tied w this one i just beheld:
"hmmmmmm... should I discog run arca later in the year"
"do it sooner than later before she drops another four albums"
paying respects in january 2022 to my january 2017 self being full tilt into moa pillar by being full tilt into ecco2k.........my thoughts page and whoever beholds this will simply just have to cope and seethe
fav exchange of tonight: i share a snippet to a friend of ecco performing pollen live, the friend goes like 'oh. my. god. is this heaven. what song is this??' (pollen, i answer) 'i think you just showed me my fav ecco track'
was lookin at the dusk sky for some time from living room window, nice gradient, a few tufts of cloud drifting by quite quick. mom asked if somethin was happenin outside, i was like, just clouds. sometimes nothing much happening can b beautiful n blissful too
time to make food
my whole . mmy whole being is a stupid little butterfly sanctuary rn
my silly self waxing poetic
chilled in a vc for like 7 hrs today and then proceeded to plop a merch shirt into an animal crossing new horizons custom design type thing. productive day innit !!
also nice n blissful (perfectlystill [gemstone1], also by ecco)
ambient-adjacent ecco my ultimate weakness, these days... or at least on some moments, such as tonight
re video: never have played sonic adventure 2 or suchlike so have never actually got to interact w chao but they seem like cute creatures
no thoughts in my head. only eccology by ecco2k
just that the site is a bit sore now and i kind of wanna take a nap
the buns of the local hospital's cafe slap. got a couple cinnamon rolls and a couple wiener bun type things. rly nice. and i'm feeling fine after the jab rn
i shouldve looked at city bus times before booking booster jab appt
also yesterday i ended up buying a longsleeved shirt and a 2000piece jigsaw puzzle
still gotta give my damn eyes a break, after sleep
part of me wanna listen to sad music but my eyes hurt and by extension my ears want rest
thinkin back on last august
once the now former crush and i intentionally severed contact it freed up the mindspace to truly be on my bullshit
got paid today also so theres that adding to the decadence a little too, in addition to the break (tho i did punt most of it right into savings)
gonna get boosterjabbed on monday too, hope my body wont be too much like 'wtf ? ? ?' at it (got the j jab like 7 months ago, i was fine from that besides a lil tiredness which mightve also been bc of other stuff, and soreness at the site)
and sometime next week a cereal nite type vidcall/chat w a friend (again tho 1st one was months ago lol, and yes we did simply chill, n eat cereal) bc why not >:)
feeling decadent, might go out for pizza tomorrow after work ends for lunch (sat workdays til 2pm. and then ill have a week off work), then might peep the clothes selection at the like. mall thing. or whatever. the one thats technically part of the same branch of the chain/co-op the shop i work at belongs to also (and which is not far from it) so i could get employees discount there >:)
ok it can be a semiforbidden stim toy on other levels too
monky brain wants to try eject a different much less valuable cd from e's ejector case at full force. i will sit at work w this thought all day probably
IT'S HERE IT'S HERE i can fetch it omw to work !!
the current mystery: will the parcel with ✨the cd✨ be dropped in post office or parcel machine. will find out today or tomorrow. cant wait
looking at a persons lastfm account just as they r listening to a couple tracks off an album u introduced to em the other day = +10 serotonin or whatever
today been a feast
i guess ill mop the floor around nowish n then count the cash register n then just continue fooling (and customering as needed) til closing
the sheer trust the manager of the shop has in me is somewhat extremely a vibe lol, im workin alone all week while shes on break this week (n then vice versa next week), its extremely calm here this time of year so im mostly just vibing to music from 1 earbud (while radio plays from aux) and fooling around on a dragon pet site type thing (flight rising)
[shrug] this works too!
maailma inimene this maailma inimene that bithc u r in this world too idc
checking thru some of my backlog, but punted some familiar shit into the midst of an album listenthrough bc felt like listenin to a couple certain bladee songs while beholding early dusk
skramz to some songs off exeter by bladee n back to skramz is a fun twist
tiktok this tiktok that. i only know mechatok
(was gna tweet this but i dont know if id like it 2 b searchable)
heartbreak is fine kindling for a good drain
a friend of mine after i said the ashes of a figuratively burnt down crushstate made way for me being rly into drain gang
the lil harmonizing in cartoon smile by oli xl feels like the audio equivalent of a most comforting hug
clawing at these walls of the self n of some particular loneliness or whatever it is
nvm i guess ive hit some point of mental exhaustion rn im not feelin too hot
ive been listening to the same snip of bladee harmonizing for what must be at least a combined 6 hours total the past couple of days or something. had it going on (manual) loop for 4 hours from one earbud yesterday while i was at work. its very pretty.
strange that i have low mental energy these days but dont seem to be unhappy w things as they are rn?
me getting stuck on looping songs/albums a bunch must be a manifestation of it. and not having much energy for longer out-of-the-blue dming with ppl one on one (a lil ye but been more barebones on my end mostly esp w my best friend heh).
and not having much energy for actively playing animal crossing rn. i guess a break from that would b nice and freeing. been wanting to chip away at ecco the dolphin some more (have got to the point where i gotta fetch the asterite's missing orb)
and been wanting to deal with the state of my room, and been wanting to pick up handicrafts again more actively but i would have to at least temporarily drop something else to have the mental energy to do that. been on discord too much anyway i feel. and at this point i dont think cutting some of it would make me feel as lonely as some part of me thinks it would. will see how to proceed i guess.
had the most frictionless wakeup-to-oatmeal process today. (my cat yelled for food, waking me up at squarely 6am, and i found myself to be awfully hungry too)
also i did manage to make and decorate all the gingerbreads yesterday which was really nice. and went n had some fun in the snow today which was also really nice.
my active taste in an ecco chamber right now fr
another one on the horizon possibly, ive been listening to killer bee remix of calcium by ecco for like 13 times in a row now and the person has some music of their own which im now inclined to check out too. who knows tho. but the damn remix slaps.
gonna try get around to making gingerbreads today from the dough i made a few days ago. have a fuckton of icing too which might be fun
was in bed for like around 14 hours or something mostly sleeping, guess i needed it. might be a silent day today, dont even know where my parents are rn. nice n peaceful n quiet over the holidays for once
(have had one of my bros come over w his wife n their 2 small kids the past couple/few xmases but not this time which is really nice)
merry christmas to everyone and in particular that one swiss person on discogs (re)selling the ecco2k e cd because fuck it i bought it bc i was feeling kind and my wallet could manage it
oh also a couple songs on e by ecco r yves prod i forgot to mention that connection [not that it much matters to most that may stumble here but still >:)]
and tbf i rly like both of em
anyway time to continue chilling at work i guess
tho maybe ill put on some ecco from my earbuds later too. sometimes i impress myself in how much repeat value im able to find in some stuff. built different.
is my mind musically just orbiting drain/ecco2k-but-only-adjacent-to-them realms rn (ecco's opened for some yves shows; the pre-oxhy new-discovery type obsession was a mechatok album and mecha has produced for dg...). yes, yes it might be. not complaining tho
might screw around and shove my local files on shuffle again while at work (or while at home) some fine time tho to kick up some more dust
current mild obsesh: safe in the hands of love by yves tumor (feel like i might slowly make my way thru each of their releases n savouring em i guess ! but who knows where the hell my brain will take me next)
economy of freedom (1 of the songs off that) made me cry a lil the other nite bc the lyrics touched some dormant feelings-stuff within me
very unideal amount of sleep
tho on the other hand it can get kind of lonely on solo workdays
i guess i like knowing which workdays im on my own on bc during lunch break ill have to entirely close shop for the half an hr and then i can loudly sing along to a bit of music bc nobody to overhear me, unlike at home n on non-alone workdays
ive been doing some private thought-venting on a private twitter acc bc i use a 3rd party twit client app thing on my phone thats kinda nice n light (sure it doesnt support dms and stuff LMAO but nonetheless i like it) (twidere btw) and can spit out the thoughts at instant.
wondering how my thoughts might split btwn here n there...
been kind of obsessed w this ep (rights of spring by oxhy) laaaaargely bc of the song w the ecco2k feature but the whole thing has nice broody vibes
[gently prods at this text box] ok lets go. lets see. lets Experiment
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